Today. A bad day.

It is 1pm. I've lost my temper countless times already and feel like such a failure. I have the most beautiful children. So full of life and strong willed. Very strong willed that it is hard to deal at times. This morning my house is a complete disaster, Rocco broke the "nice" garbage can by standing on it repeatedly jumping on it-finally fell on it after playing in the sink. Toys are everywhere, laundry isn't done and my children have only heard me yelling today. This morning Rocco's SW was here and she is stumped on what to do since it is so difficult at home with the boys behaviors. After she left I loaded the kids up and we drove for an hour jump around. We ended up at the big park on wolf and greenview in DP. The boys loved it!!! When it was time to Dom runs away from me over and over and I leave the park feeling like crap since I had to scream and Hollar and get so worked up. My beautiful boys, if you only could learn to listen. We could have so much more fun. I'm in tears as I feed the baby so sad that I can't enjoy these few short toddler years. Motherhood is difficult that is for sure.